Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Last night I dreamt the rapture was coming


I woke in cold sweat, I've had dreams like this before but never so vivid,
waking up in an empty house terrified and shaking.
The past two weeks have been a ridiculous binge of intoxicants of all sorts,
no day was left to welcome back a sober state of being,
carried away,
intense detachment from reality and regular bursts of hilarity and euphoria.
Unnatural,manufactured joy in unspeakable amounts.
That much happiness comes at a heavy price,
drifting to sleep with the presence of a heavy depression, followed by continuous dreams of how everything ends with a deafening sonorous siren,
panic
and a frightening ending where we'd all be punished.
frightening stuff,
the morning only half washed the fear away.

Friday, July 15, 2011

It's the glare from the reflection
making patterns in your eyes
It's the looking back in anger
With every second slipping by

Theres a tiny little window,
swarms of locusts fill the sky,
maybe I'll just disappear
if i cant
keep my head above the tide

Please anyone,
I dont think I can,
save myself,
Im drowning here please , anyone
I dont think I can, save myself

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

mirror mirror








cause we're all two-faced, personality double, character sponging whores.

Originality is a rare thing,
only occuring once a blue moon,
the things we think we come up with, more than likely we've seen before but don't remember , thus thinking of it and deciding it's our own idea...
we all seem to be copy-and-paste mirror images of each other,
If you think you arnt you're probably wrong
so yeahh...
Jenn and I
DISCOVER THE BEAUTY OF MACINTOSH MIRROR-VISION WEBCAM

Friday, June 17, 2011

I dont know what love is

but if it looked like anything it'd probably be this





Saturday, June 11, 2011

I was lost in a Valley of pleasure




I was lost in the infinate sea
I was lost, measure for measure,
LOVE SPEWED FROM THE HEART OF ME

It was a life outside normal life, the festival was called 'Life'
and everyone there, with wild well wishing eyes that wished you to 'have a nice life'
In the midst of the love-buzz atmosphere hugs and handshakes feral dancing and embracing of all sorts
me and my girl climbed hand in hand up a green hill, at this stage we were peaking like dolphins on an acid buzz and it felt like my love for her and the world was consuming me, sounds bent but seriously no joke
So i turned to her and was all: 'Eva...this is one of the happiest moments of my life and we will remember this when we are 40...no 70...no...untill we die, i willl never ever forget you or this weekend'
and i just remember her eyes widening and her entire face settling into the most euphoric and crazed smile.
Later looking around I said to my friends: 'who are all these people in the real world I wonder?In the distant life outside 'Life',
I thought to myself over and over again ~ these mad looking creatures, paint dirt and grins on their faces taking in the beauty of the surroundings through their dialated pupils (people really do look prettier with bigger pupils)
among these masses are
bank managers
shop keepers
waiters and waitresses s
solicitors ,judo intructors?,web designers,plumbers,chefs,well....drugdealers for sure,salesmen/women,fruit pickers,hairdressers
bin men
maybe even a few doctors and lawyers?? even an astronaut ? ;]

People that in another life~ the real life, have nothing in comon, here in this maaad forest-fantistic-intoxicating-hippy-land of "uppers downers and screamers" have themselves in comon,
We were all there,
and it didnt matter at the time how dismal the return to the real world was gonna be,
or how hard the approaching comedown would hit
everything seemed to fit into place
and everything was perfect

I was lost
and the cost
and the cost didnt matter to me
I was lost
and the cost, was to be outside society...

eva broke her fekin camera tho so not a single fucking proper picture UGHHHHH



Wednesday, May 11, 2011

Hot child in the city









Jen and I running wild in the city,
searching for employment(but only the kind where no silly hats are required) mischief, excitement, a bathroom and 4 euro after 4pm subway
The picture drought is OVER

Friday, April 29, 2011

I love my motts


and by motts i mean my beautiful women girl companion friends
yessssaaa
gender does count in friendship,
guy friends are great
but to what extent can two people of different genders truly identify and completely understand each other in a friendship?...Not fully...
i could be wrong...
with blokes theres allways something missing, or for me a fear of betrayal, a fear of being tricked?Or just simply the unignorable fact that men and women are opposite,I'm no feminist, but i dont think i trust any men...
my girls though
UGHH
only love and security